Far Far Away ...

Early this morning she's left for a short holiday in Bintan with 7 others. My baby, the youngest of my three is starting to spread her wings and slowly but surely she'll one day fly away.

With a prayer in my heart for her safety where she's going, I feel that I must let go and trust her to stand on her own.  Only time will tell if she's practiced all she'd learn while growing up.

Aah yes! said she'd post pics on watsapp for the family to see while she's away. Just like her!!

Our home will be kinda quiet for the next few days.  This being so as she's always shouting greetings back and forth with her dad whenever she leaves or return home so yeah ...  it's gonna be quite ... quiet.

Just Passing Through

Starting out yesterday morning for my PCSE meeting, everything looked bright and beautiful. During our meeting we were told to prayer for one of our parishioner, whom we've been visiting, who has gone into a coma and is not expected to  hold on much longer. By the end of our meeting a message was forwarded to us that RA had passed-on. A short prayer was said for his soul and "May Eternal Rest Grant Unto Him O Lord - and Let Perpetual Light Shine Upon Him - May His Soul Rest In Peace, Amen!"
It's news like this that puts a damper on ones' day. He almost always jokes and laughs during our visits even though he feels drowsy with the medications that he was taking. We'll miss you RA.

Life is unpredictable. Here today - gone tomorrow. Yet how oft times, we take it for granted that there'll always be a tomorrow for us. Today I visited a wheelchair homebound parishioner. Coming out at the lift-landing on her floor, our group saw that she had gone visiting a friend at the other end of the corridor. She was excited to see us. Wheeling herself as fast as she could, and hurriedly opening her gate, she beckoned us in with open arms. Speaking to her, we informed that another of our parishioner who lived a few floors above her had passed on about a fortnight ago. She felt sad as she only knew that someone had died but didn't think that it was someone she knew. She started to tear, saying when one is old and living alone with barely anyone of her family bothering to visit her, even if she fell down, no one would know. And that did happen sometime ago. Luckily her door was opened and after three days upon opening her eyes, found herself in hospital. A neighbour had seen her on the floor and getting no response decided to call for help! Now, I wonder if living in homes built for the elderly is a good idea or otherwise... hmmm.... Yes, you may have the devices built to cater to their needs but where is the laughter of youngsters, who at this time in the lives of these elderlies, would be a welcoming sight and sound in this neighbourhood.

Blah, blah, blah ...

Last Week -
So excited! I succeeded in baking the sugee cake which was enjoyed by friends and family. 
Even managed to guide my daughter to better the one I made - now that's what I call jackpot!!!
Darn it, should've taken a photo of the cake awww! Guess everyone was too excited to eat it no one remembered to photograph it. What a waste.

Now -
Looking out into the rainy skies - I feel so calm and at peace with everything at this very moment. Keeping my mind blank, just looking but not seeing makes me feel sooo... good. The weather is cold almost freezing but me, I seem to be far, far away!
What is coming over me?? The calling of birds and their flying around the trees downstairs in the junior college brings me back to reality. Aah .. it's early yet, for me it's time starting to tick away. Time to proceed with my routine.
The dryer has stopped, another round of laundry to replace the existing one. Thawing out the food from the freezer for cooking has to be done before its too late. Bedsheets to change, floors to sweep, clothes to fold, wiping the furnitures got to be done too. Oh! - the never ending layer of thick dust around the house due to the "home improvement program" being carried-out in this area.
Time is running fast, faster than me but, life goes on ... so back to work and another day has begun ...

Something to Ponder about ...

Speaking with my youngest this morning as she was leaving for her work attachment, it suddenly dawn on me that she's reached a cross-road in her life. Neither a teenager nor an adult. And she's searching for a niche to morph ... yea ... into a career woman.

Soon she'll be graduating and living another life. Then it'll be another rat race all over again!

Starting to be strong-headed in character and testing every ground that she walks-on, some days she tries my patience to the limit.
 

To her father, she'll always be daddy's little girl. She knows it and how to get away with it.

My three caterpillars have turned into butterflies and will someday not too soon I pray, fly away!!!!

 

Us ?? We'll be where we started once again. At least we'll have each other for company until such time when ............

Time Changes Many things ...

With a heavy heart and blurry eyes... I pray that mummy has finally found peace from all her earthly pains and sufferings. Seeing her swiftly going downhill was heart-breaking. But standing-by and not being able to do a thing about it, was frustrating.

No tearful farewell, she moved-on to greener pastures on Wednesday 22nd February 2012 (my daughter, her grand-daughter's birthday!), at 2248hrs. Peacefully she shut her eyes after her liquid feed and went to sleep forever.

Having prayed for her earthly sufferings to end swiftly and knowing that my prayers have been heard...

"Lord I thank You with all my heart tho' no words can describe the lightness I now feel - I know mummy is today walking hand in hand with daddy in your heavenly kingdom." Amen.